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Well three years of hell finally down the drain, we had a gorgeous little miracle. Our daughter who i love very much and she shows that at one point there was love in our relationship i cant see it or remember much these days because of severe migraines that i feel are melting my brain haha maybe not really but still memories are missing :s but life moves on we separated last November and after the shit the ex pulled with me for so long i wasn't heart broken i was just pissed off...he wanted to stay "friends" yeah right after tearing my soul apart and destroying my mental state so bad i doubt myself i'm not going back there ever!!
But i met someone an amazing man who is so down to earth and loving and well pure i'm happy now he's fixed a lot of the damage and has helped me see through the darkness he is my personal Bruce Wayne and i love him very much he makes me feel amazing and special and wanted, in a way my ex never truly did...
So i'm off the other website i was using because of some ass whole who clearly just wanted to mess with my life...they didn't succeed in breaking me though and well i'm back here now i'm slowly going to upload pictures of my gorgeous little girl and even some pictures of me maybe of the new boyfriend to if he doesn't mind haha life is good and my heart is soaring so high but I'm not scared because i know Kye will catch me if i start to fall...i'm going back to college in September to do a 2 year course in Nursing and Midwifery and also hoping to learn to drive to, my little girl who turns 3 in September will be starting school because she has the mental age of a 5 year old and i'm spending most of my time out of Cardiff and may even be moving out from there to the dark cloud is there and so i'm moving on from all the pain from the past, even though Cardiff is where i was born and as i like to say "My city" it just has so much poison there and bad memories for me I'm happy to move away.
Well three years of hell finally down the drain, we had a gorgeous little miracle. Our daughter who i love very much and she shows that at one point there was love in our relationship i cant see it or remember much these days because of severe migraines that i feel are melting my brain haha maybe not really but still memories are missing :s but life moves on we separated last November and after the shit the ex pulled with me for so long i wasn't heart broken i was just pissed off...he wanted to stay "friends" yeah right after tearing my soul apart and destroying my mental state so bad i doubt myself i'm not going back there ever!!
But i met someone an amazing man who is so down to earth and loving and well pure i'm happy now he's fixed a lot of the damage and has helped me see through the darkness he is my personal Bruce Wayne and i love him very much he makes me feel amazing and special and wanted, in a way my ex never truly did...
So i'm off the other website i was using because of some ass whole who clearly just wanted to mess with my life...they didn't succeed in breaking me though and well i'm back here now i'm slowly going to upload pictures of my gorgeous little girl and even some pictures of me maybe of the new boyfriend to if he doesn't mind haha life is good and my heart is soaring so high but I'm not scared because i know Kye will catch me if i start to fall...i'm going back to college in September to do a 2 year course in Nursing and Midwifery and also hoping to learn to drive to, my little girl who turns 3 in September will be starting school because she has the mental age of a 5 year old and i'm spending most of my time out of Cardiff and may even be moving out from there to the dark cloud is there and so i'm moving on from all the pain from the past, even though Cardiff is where i was born and as i like to say "My city" it just has so much poison there and bad memories for me I'm happy to move away.
I won't go back
The title says it all right? Wrong as it is like the tip of rhe iceberg that is my life about now... my mind is constantly running away to its safe place where it can wrap itself up in it's security blanket clutching a cuddley toy and scoffing all the really bad snacks (chocolate, sweets ect) you can see where that is going. Which leaves me and those around me to the mercy of the others inside my head... and trust me it really ain't fun. My heart had been kept half broken by myself for the past 6 years as I knew the guy I was dating was never going to love me back the way I loved him and at the time I didn't want him to feel guilty for breaking my heart (what a bloody fool I was) he might as well have torn my heart out of my chest and just like in the netflix show crushed it in his very hand... yup he broke me and broke me again and tore down everything good and strong and innocent about me What was left I hear you say? A broken, sad, dark and twisted soul with no heart and a
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Apologies for the lack of features on this journal but I am going to do a special journal soon with just artwork featured :)
So recently life has become a little more interesting, things have perked up... I won a battle that I had prepared for and made some good choices for myself and no one else
my therapy is going well and we are making progress. I recently rehomed two male rats who I named after my partner's Dungeons and Dragons game which he plays online with his friends each weekend.
Recently I had a weekend away with my little girl, I planned the trip and booked the hotel :) and although it wasn't far away (Southampton) we have been
Just a quick one
So I've dug out one of my very old pieces of work which the only copy I own is in my own handwriting...
the question is simple, is there anyone who would be willing to help me add to it at all? as there just isn't enough
background to the main start-up of the story itself.
Honestly, I would not be able to pay anyone which is why I am posting here, in the hopes that some of my followers
or just fellow creative writers would be happy to help.
Proper journal post coming in the next few days/ week.
Isn't life strange... the turn of a page
First things first, artwork that has caught my attention;
Well, the first "battle" I guess is over. My daughter will be safe, and things will be good for her. She will start seeing her father again which she is very excited about and honestly, my feelings are quite numb on the subject… I may not like the man but at the end of the day it’s not about me or him, a child has the right to know both parents and so this is what I’m leaving well alone until the day where my baby girl chooses different if she ever does. If she is happy and safe that is all I’m concerned about and things are in place to make sure that is the c
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